I enjoy brilliance. It does me good to be around it. I'm attracted to it.
Lessons in Tanya - Brilliantly explained. I think. Clear, concise, great choice of words.
I appreciate good choice of words. I take such pleasure in it.
Dr. Goldberg - A Yid. Top surgeon at Jules Stein Inst. -Ucla Brilliant. Waltzes in with students flanked at his sides, following him like puppies. The air in the office is like, the czar himself has arrived. His words are few, I beg for more. B"H I'm not intimidated. I realize he is just a human being but a brilliant one. I'm uplifted around him.
Dr. Kazimiroff - Neurologist. I so appreciate when he explains the brain. And everything connected, which is everything. Draws diagrams for me - I really wanna understand. I like to hear what he has to say.
Dr. Igasaki - Peridontist. His clear explanations, his choice of words. I like.
I'm not gonna mention every brilliant person I ever but.... Somehow I am drawn to one who has something brilliant to say, be it a concept, a piece of writing, or even a wit. Ahh wit. Perhaps my favourite.
If you have to tell them to buy you flowers then then you might as well buy them yourself. It's when it's his pleasure, his shtick, then it's appreciated.
Don't look startled when you encounter another human being as you exit (or enter) an elevator - there is bound to be someone there. Trust me on this one.
Even if you don't check - dust will still collect under your bed. Balls (regular ones, not only dust ones) and tissues too. Sometimes other stuff too. SOO, good idea to sweep.
If someone says, "I'm not well", be it physically, spiritually or emotionally, how much you would like to ignore that, don't - it's not nice.
Pondering - Why does it disturb me when I hear you are cleaning for Pesach now!!? Is it like when you start preparing for Shabbos on Wednesday? I mean it's nice and all to think Shabbos a whole week, but then to me that means not only am I busy with it on Friday but Wed. and Thurs. too. They claim that then their Fridays are calmer, so by me Wed. and Thurs. are calmer. I don't get this concept. From Chanuka till Pesach you are busy with Pesach! Ya then what? Will you start or finish Pesach earlier then me? Like my neighbour, she starts putting away her Pesach on chol Hamoed... Okay, whatever...
And as the saying here goes; When in Rome do without.
Well, let's see. I've been in bed for how long now? I did venture out though today, never mind that I felt faint.
I did send Anne the flyer to the Soul Jazz festival, that made her happy - maybe she'll go.
My appetite is not back though. Which in a way i'm happy the more weight I lose the better, I guess. The only time I not eat, is if I'm sick, very excited or busy. I'm not excited and I'm not busy. Laying in bed is called busy?
Mayn head not so sharp. But I did write that Thankyou for Ma. AND I even made B. change things cuz Ma liked my way better. Hmpf.
Vat else? Made a wash, gave kids supper. Laughed at Eliyohu's post.
Okay, I'm not depressed. Just a little down, okay a lot down.. Thank you for asking. Hehe.
Okay, I think it's getting to me. This is the 11th day. Till now I guess I didn't think much about it. It was what it was and zehu. NOW, it's kzat scaring me. Well, not really scaring like, "Oh I'm so scared, frightened". More like, "Uh oh, am I gonna get out of this?" And I'm worried that this should not turn into some physicological issue. Oy. Chas V'sholom.
Very weak. Not depressed, (don't worry Ms. or is it Mrs. A. Wish.) I know, because I very much enjoyed the cake. Depressed people don't enjoy, cake or anything.
My bed became my haven. My city. THE place to be. Boruch Hashem, for the stomach-top.
I think - oh that's a good thing - tomorrow I should force myself to venture out. We'll see.
Let me ponder on this issue. Am I offended because I think I deserve better? Am I hurt/upset because you are forbidden to do that? Do you owe me anything? No, no and no. So why am I so sad at this? Am I disappointed? Is this something I didn't expect you to do? Ya, disappointed would be more like it. My hope, my desire, my expectation was thwarted. (My imagination was distorted.) I didn't expect it, and was kinda unpleasantly surprised to discover the truth. Hmm... Stupid me. Why do I hope for the impossible? Why do I wish for the unhappenable?
Why do I get "cold" when I ask for "warm"? Why do I get a "slap" when I ask for an "embrace"? And why don't I get an answer when a question is asked?
When I cease to dream, I will not expect. When I cease to expect, I will not get offended. Hopefully.
Don't go through life, grow through life. G-d can only do for you what He can do through you. I am not what I think. I am thinking what I think. Our job is not to set things right but to see them right. The one thing that a fish can never find is water; and the one thing that man can never find is God. We don't change what we are, we change what we think what we are.